I apologize for being inactive and not having a lot of time to post on here recently, but my mom was reading this article recently to us and even though it is talking about people with porn addictions you can fill in the blank with any addiction. It was very helpful to me with my self-harm/abuse problems and thought I'd share it with you guys! I promise to write on here more often, so keep an eye out for upcoming posts cause I have some very important stuff panned :)
http://www.covenanteyes.com/2016/02/16/fighting-wrong-issue/
Let me know your thoughts on the article and I love the feedback from you all...thanks for sticking with me while I get back into the blogging groove!!
Tuesday, February 23, 2016
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
Worst enemy
After a very long time of struggling and denial and a lot of recent self-revalations and acceptance and a ton of "click" moments, I came to finally understand and admit that I was my own worst enemy. For years now so many people have hurt me and tried to bring me down for various reasons and yet no matter what anyone did to me, I was always the worst bully to myself. Even though many things have been done to me, I LET it get to me. I LET people hurt me and bring me down because I thought I deserved it and that it would make me hurt in a way I couldn't do to myself. I craved the pain thinking that at least I was feeling something instead of the numb emptiness inside. And that even about a month ago if a car were barreling torwards me, I would have let it hit me, because I thought it was what would help me. That it was what I deserved. I didn't let myself feel happiness or love because I was too afraid to open up and get hurt. But then I realized that the most important person you need to open up to and let in, other than God....is yourself. That until you love yourself, learn who you are, and accept yourself for the way you were made and who you are that it's going to be very hard to love someone else and let others in. Because how can you let someone in when you deny yourself access? It's okay to feel pain and hurt when something happens. But don't let it eat away at you and don't dwell on it. If you lost someone you love, rememeber all of the happy memories and times you had with them. If you lost something that you worked so hard on, then remember the journey you took making it and the amazing feeling of accomplishment. If you lost a job or a home or important piece in your life, then remember the good and know that it is possible to start over again. But the only way that can happen is if you stand up and keep moving guys. I know it may seem like the world is falling apart and that your stuck in mud and can't move on and it will take time, but its' so so very possible! Don't ever give up guys no matter how hard it gets, things can't always stay bad and WILL get better.
If you have any self-harm issue, or want bad things to happen to you, or any eating problems, or suicidal thoughts, I beg that you please first seek professional help, but know that if you want to get better, you can. No one in the world can help you get better if you don't want to. Depression and other mantal illnesses are a phisical problem, yes. But there are so many things you can do to fight the mental side of the problem now and at home or where ever you are.
First, recognize and be willing to admit that you're your own worst bully and that no matter how much bullies or hate you get, that you need to fix yourself first. Think of all of your problems as a pond and then imagine throwing a rock in it. The place it lands is the core problem and all of the ripples that come out are the other problems in life. But before you can fix what's going on around you and in your life, you have to work on yourself. You can't help a sinking boat if you're falling apart yourself.
Then next step is to erase and get rid of anything and everything bad and negative in your life and in your MIND. The mental side is the hardest but for example, if you're constantly reading and seeing bad pictures in your Insta/Facebook/social-media feed all day, it's not going to help you at all. No matter how much it might seem like it doesn't trigger you at all (and it might truely not) but you do not need that in your life. Is it helping you? Benifiting you? Healing, supportive, encouraging? If it is not helping you then dis-associate yourself from it. I know this may be hard if you're in a bad job, living space, etc, but try to get rid of any and all that you can. Only do what you can without making things worse (like quitting a bad job or such).
From there you can then surround yourself with encouraging, uplifting, and helpful things in life (on your phone, heome decor, books, movies, etc). Anything positive, happy or will help you. From there, it makes things SO much easier. What you surround yourself with will influence you so much. So bring things in to your life that will heal and not hurt.
Now that you've done the best to erase the bad from around you, do the same to your mind. Block any and all bad thoughts and if one threatens to come in, think of something encouraging or sing an upbeat song. If you need something more, watch a happy movie, read a good book, listen to uplifting music. If you listen to break-up and sad music all day how are you going to feel? If you listen to something happy and upbeat and encouraging how are you going to feel? Surround yourself with good. And then it makes fighting the mental side, so much easier. It won't be easy or a smooth ride from there because you're going to want to go back to old habits and fall back to what you're known. But always ask yourself, is it helping me? If not, then you're probably better off without. Always question things and double check. You're more likely to walk into something bad if you don't know what's going on and didn't ask questions.
Push any and all bad thoughts out of your head and anytime you crave to do something harmful go and do something productive (eg. work out/exercise, write a long-hand letter to a friend, talk a walk out in nature, etc). But get moving. If you're idle and bored you're more likely to do something harmful just because you have nothing to keep you occupied and to stop yourself and have the self-control to walk away. But you can get through this. Whatever you're going through it won't last forever. I promise no matter how bad things are or how cliche it sounds, things always get better. They do. Seeing where I am now, happy and at peace with myself and life (granted it's not easy and I struggle but I'm getting there ;)), and looking back on where I used to be, a dark place I wish upon no one including even my worst enemies, I can honestly promise that things get better. Yes, things will come up in life. That's a part of life. God throws hurdles at us and it's up to us if we pick up our feet and jump or just sit down and give up. You never know what tomorrow will hold and the opportunities you may discover unless you wake up and get out of bed and get over the next hurdle. God gives us the bad in life to make us better people and challenge who we are and make us stronger. He will never give you something He knows you can't handle. And things are only as hard as you make them. We can change our perspective in life and stand up and fight and make things easier. There are three choices in life: Give up, give in, or give it all you've got.
As for me, I choose the last.
Would you guys like for me to end each post with a scripture verse that I've read or loved recently? Or just one I think would relate to the topic or would be inspirational?
Thank-you again for reading guys. Always remember I'm here for you and if you need to talk, feel free to reach out to me!
If you have any self-harm issue, or want bad things to happen to you, or any eating problems, or suicidal thoughts, I beg that you please first seek professional help, but know that if you want to get better, you can. No one in the world can help you get better if you don't want to. Depression and other mantal illnesses are a phisical problem, yes. But there are so many things you can do to fight the mental side of the problem now and at home or where ever you are.
First, recognize and be willing to admit that you're your own worst bully and that no matter how much bullies or hate you get, that you need to fix yourself first. Think of all of your problems as a pond and then imagine throwing a rock in it. The place it lands is the core problem and all of the ripples that come out are the other problems in life. But before you can fix what's going on around you and in your life, you have to work on yourself. You can't help a sinking boat if you're falling apart yourself.
Then next step is to erase and get rid of anything and everything bad and negative in your life and in your MIND. The mental side is the hardest but for example, if you're constantly reading and seeing bad pictures in your Insta/Facebook/social-media feed all day, it's not going to help you at all. No matter how much it might seem like it doesn't trigger you at all (and it might truely not) but you do not need that in your life. Is it helping you? Benifiting you? Healing, supportive, encouraging? If it is not helping you then dis-associate yourself from it. I know this may be hard if you're in a bad job, living space, etc, but try to get rid of any and all that you can. Only do what you can without making things worse (like quitting a bad job or such).
From there you can then surround yourself with encouraging, uplifting, and helpful things in life (on your phone, heome decor, books, movies, etc). Anything positive, happy or will help you. From there, it makes things SO much easier. What you surround yourself with will influence you so much. So bring things in to your life that will heal and not hurt.
Now that you've done the best to erase the bad from around you, do the same to your mind. Block any and all bad thoughts and if one threatens to come in, think of something encouraging or sing an upbeat song. If you need something more, watch a happy movie, read a good book, listen to uplifting music. If you listen to break-up and sad music all day how are you going to feel? If you listen to something happy and upbeat and encouraging how are you going to feel? Surround yourself with good. And then it makes fighting the mental side, so much easier. It won't be easy or a smooth ride from there because you're going to want to go back to old habits and fall back to what you're known. But always ask yourself, is it helping me? If not, then you're probably better off without. Always question things and double check. You're more likely to walk into something bad if you don't know what's going on and didn't ask questions.
Push any and all bad thoughts out of your head and anytime you crave to do something harmful go and do something productive (eg. work out/exercise, write a long-hand letter to a friend, talk a walk out in nature, etc). But get moving. If you're idle and bored you're more likely to do something harmful just because you have nothing to keep you occupied and to stop yourself and have the self-control to walk away. But you can get through this. Whatever you're going through it won't last forever. I promise no matter how bad things are or how cliche it sounds, things always get better. They do. Seeing where I am now, happy and at peace with myself and life (granted it's not easy and I struggle but I'm getting there ;)), and looking back on where I used to be, a dark place I wish upon no one including even my worst enemies, I can honestly promise that things get better. Yes, things will come up in life. That's a part of life. God throws hurdles at us and it's up to us if we pick up our feet and jump or just sit down and give up. You never know what tomorrow will hold and the opportunities you may discover unless you wake up and get out of bed and get over the next hurdle. God gives us the bad in life to make us better people and challenge who we are and make us stronger. He will never give you something He knows you can't handle. And things are only as hard as you make them. We can change our perspective in life and stand up and fight and make things easier. There are three choices in life: Give up, give in, or give it all you've got.
As for me, I choose the last.
Would you guys like for me to end each post with a scripture verse that I've read or loved recently? Or just one I think would relate to the topic or would be inspirational?
Thank-you again for reading guys. Always remember I'm here for you and if you need to talk, feel free to reach out to me!
Wednesday, November 4, 2015
What is self-love and acceptance?
Is it telling yourself that you're better than everyone else?
Is it letting everyone walk on top of you even if you think it'll help you feel better? Is it being prideful? Or being weak? Is it being too humble and then letting everyone take what you have and being left with nothing? Or is it hoarding everything so you'll always have something?
Honestly....Through trial and error you have to find that good inbetween. Everyone deserves to be happy so you have to have a good level of self-respect to stand up to someone and say no, yet at the same time be humble and not be too proud. You never want to let yourself say you're better than everyone else because what you grow on the inside will manifest ten fold on the outside. So be careful of what you plant. It's okay to make mistakes though. That's the only way one will truly learn. If anyone expects you to be perfect they are setting an impossible standard, because while yes, it is good to always strive to be the best we can, perfection is not a reality. And that's okay!
The key to true happiness, joy, and peace is through believing in yourself and trusting in God. I used to be in a dark place and let myself get hurt by others, things around me, and hurt myself because I thought it was what I deserved. I hated who I was and always wished to be someone different. Whenever I heard someone say "I'm happy" or "I love who I am" I laughed because I thought it was just a joke. That happiness wasn't possible in a world so dark. But in all honesty, everyone deserves to be happy. Everyone deserves a chance. We all have our bad days, yes. But don't feel bad for yourself or let the bad and negative things in life effect you. All of the good in life depends on you and how you let the bad effect you. But all of the bad times in life are there to help us to appriciate the good and hold onto the positive and happy memories. Life is precious so don't let yourself be down or sad. Stand up to yourself and say enough is enough. I am going to be happy. And believe in it! I'm going to enjoy life! Every single one of you was fearfully and wonderfully made. Life is an amazing and special gift. Don't throw away something so powerful and beautiful. Because you're never alone. No matter what you're going through there is at least a few other people going through it too. But guys don't rely on anyone or anything else for your happiness. You can be happy! Use the bad to make good. Use the bad to inspire and motivate yourself. Learn from yours and others mistakes. There are so many tips and tricks to being happy, but it all comes down to you. CHOOSE not to walk down that dark path! Pull yourself up by your boot straps and don't be afraid of others or judgement. Make your own standards and set your own goals and dreams. Let no one else decide your future and who you are and your happiness. Take your life in to your own hands and trust that God has something amazing in store for you.
For example. You can not pray to God everyday "Lord, give me more money... I really need it!" and then sit on the couch and do nothing all day except stare at the heavens waiting for the money to float down on a fluffy golden cloud.
If there is a flood and you're up on a roof top, you can't pray "God help get me out of here!" and then when a boat comes by and says "We're here to help!" you send them away because you're waiting for God to come rescue you.
God will give you the opportunities to for the things you need and yes, even want. He will open doors for you, And close those He deems are not the right ones for you. He has an ultimate plan for us but we can't sit around and wait for the opportunity to fall in our lap. We have to go out there and look for it! We have to search with passion and enjoy the search. On the way to the ultimate goal, we have to enjoy and learn from the journey. There will be so many obstacles and hurdles in life that will change us and WE determine how they change us. Your perspective is what will shape you into the person you become. So...will it be a happy, joyful, humble, kind, and sucessful person? Or a sad, tiered, frusterated, bored, and lonely person? You're only who you make yourself to be. There will always be people in your life and you're only lonely if you make yourself to be and push people away. You will always have the choice to be healthy and full of life and energy and you're only sick and tiered if you make yourself to be. You will only be sad...if you say you're sad and let yourself be.
So TAKE CONTROL! Don't let your mind play tricks on itself and get you down. Be happy and spread the happiness and let the growth inside manifest to be something good and helpful to anyone around you! Whatever situation you're in, turn it around to be a good one and learn from it. It's only a bad situation if you say it is and let it be so. So smile guys. Because we're never guarnteed tomorrow so enjoy the now and make the most of it! I love you all and never be afraid to reach out and contact me. I'll always be here for you guys and do whatever I can to help :)
Is it letting everyone walk on top of you even if you think it'll help you feel better? Is it being prideful? Or being weak? Is it being too humble and then letting everyone take what you have and being left with nothing? Or is it hoarding everything so you'll always have something?
Honestly....Through trial and error you have to find that good inbetween. Everyone deserves to be happy so you have to have a good level of self-respect to stand up to someone and say no, yet at the same time be humble and not be too proud. You never want to let yourself say you're better than everyone else because what you grow on the inside will manifest ten fold on the outside. So be careful of what you plant. It's okay to make mistakes though. That's the only way one will truly learn. If anyone expects you to be perfect they are setting an impossible standard, because while yes, it is good to always strive to be the best we can, perfection is not a reality. And that's okay!
The key to true happiness, joy, and peace is through believing in yourself and trusting in God. I used to be in a dark place and let myself get hurt by others, things around me, and hurt myself because I thought it was what I deserved. I hated who I was and always wished to be someone different. Whenever I heard someone say "I'm happy" or "I love who I am" I laughed because I thought it was just a joke. That happiness wasn't possible in a world so dark. But in all honesty, everyone deserves to be happy. Everyone deserves a chance. We all have our bad days, yes. But don't feel bad for yourself or let the bad and negative things in life effect you. All of the good in life depends on you and how you let the bad effect you. But all of the bad times in life are there to help us to appriciate the good and hold onto the positive and happy memories. Life is precious so don't let yourself be down or sad. Stand up to yourself and say enough is enough. I am going to be happy. And believe in it! I'm going to enjoy life! Every single one of you was fearfully and wonderfully made. Life is an amazing and special gift. Don't throw away something so powerful and beautiful. Because you're never alone. No matter what you're going through there is at least a few other people going through it too. But guys don't rely on anyone or anything else for your happiness. You can be happy! Use the bad to make good. Use the bad to inspire and motivate yourself. Learn from yours and others mistakes. There are so many tips and tricks to being happy, but it all comes down to you. CHOOSE not to walk down that dark path! Pull yourself up by your boot straps and don't be afraid of others or judgement. Make your own standards and set your own goals and dreams. Let no one else decide your future and who you are and your happiness. Take your life in to your own hands and trust that God has something amazing in store for you.
For example. You can not pray to God everyday "Lord, give me more money... I really need it!" and then sit on the couch and do nothing all day except stare at the heavens waiting for the money to float down on a fluffy golden cloud.
If there is a flood and you're up on a roof top, you can't pray "God help get me out of here!" and then when a boat comes by and says "We're here to help!" you send them away because you're waiting for God to come rescue you.
God will give you the opportunities to for the things you need and yes, even want. He will open doors for you, And close those He deems are not the right ones for you. He has an ultimate plan for us but we can't sit around and wait for the opportunity to fall in our lap. We have to go out there and look for it! We have to search with passion and enjoy the search. On the way to the ultimate goal, we have to enjoy and learn from the journey. There will be so many obstacles and hurdles in life that will change us and WE determine how they change us. Your perspective is what will shape you into the person you become. So...will it be a happy, joyful, humble, kind, and sucessful person? Or a sad, tiered, frusterated, bored, and lonely person? You're only who you make yourself to be. There will always be people in your life and you're only lonely if you make yourself to be and push people away. You will always have the choice to be healthy and full of life and energy and you're only sick and tiered if you make yourself to be. You will only be sad...if you say you're sad and let yourself be.
So TAKE CONTROL! Don't let your mind play tricks on itself and get you down. Be happy and spread the happiness and let the growth inside manifest to be something good and helpful to anyone around you! Whatever situation you're in, turn it around to be a good one and learn from it. It's only a bad situation if you say it is and let it be so. So smile guys. Because we're never guarnteed tomorrow so enjoy the now and make the most of it! I love you all and never be afraid to reach out and contact me. I'll always be here for you guys and do whatever I can to help :)
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
My goals
Well honestly I have many goals and so many things I want to accomplish and do in my lifetime but here are the major ones:
The reason I started YouTube and this blog was to help anyone going through a tough time or just struggling with themselves to know they're not alone and that healing and happiness is possible. I want to help others realize the power they hold in them and to take control of their lives and that happiness, self-acceptance, and healing is all dependant on them but there are many different ways to go about reaching that high ground. So I want to share through my past experiences and things I've learned over the years with others so that maybe it can help someone. I know a lot have had it worse off than me and that I am not a professor nor know everything, but that hopefully some of my ramblings and mumblings can make sense to someone and maybe help them. I also want to give others some ideas on how to enjoy life and make the best of what they have. Growing up I know that my family is not the most privileged but that I am so so thankful for what God has given us and that we could have it a lot worse off. And for years I complained always wanting more and always taking things for granted. I sorely wish I hadn't because I have lost much due to that. After many trials and errors I have come to learn to always be thankful for what you have, no matter what it may be.
And it doesn't matter if you're that kid that wears hand-me-downs or works harder than all the other kids to do what they love or the kid that is considered weird to others because of their passions, because as long as you love yourself and enjoy what you do, then the haters can keep hating all they want but you'll end up being the one with years and years of amazing and fulfilling memories and experiences that you'd never want to trade for even the world itself. Always think of the long-run and that yes, it may seem bad right now. But I promise that things always get better. They can't always stay bad. And if you're not here for tomorrow, who knows what it holds? Who knows what amazing opportunity might suddenly present itself to you by total happen-chance? God can work amazing miracles. Never give up guys. Tomorrow is another day and a fresh start.
Another goal is to be involved in helping others in need. Either in nursing homes, orphanages, animal rescues, or at the local yard sale I want to be active in doing good for this planet and the people and lives on it. So so so so so (I can not write enough so's) many people take things for granted and I know there are many mistakes that humans make, but sadly this is a big one. We are never guaranteed tomorrow so always treasure today and right now like it was your last. BUT instead of living it selfishly and doing something to benefit you, go and do something that would in your imaginary last day benefit someone that would be living tomorrow. Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. And when you give you always get back. It may not always be something like cash or a physical item. It may only be a hug, sincere "thank-you", or just making someone happy but let that be enough! Let making someone's day make your day. Let making someone smile, make you smile. Give generously and not worry about what you'll get back in return, because the love that you give that is always guaranteed to come back 10 fold. Spread happiness and be happy doing so!! I can not express how happy it makes me to make someone happy and see them smile...it makes all of the hard times that it took me to get here so worth it and I would never change it for the world!
Spreading love, happiness, and goodness to others is not easy. We all have our bad days and that's okay! We just have to realize that one day shouldn't take us down and stop us. Remember why you do what you do (whatever that may be) and use that to motivate yourself to keep going.
I also want to help spread the concept of self-acceptance, self-love, and not judging/bullying/putting others down. Hurting others is a disguise for weakness. Even though words do hurt, don't let someone using them to hurt you get to you. Don't ignore it because eventually after bottling it up for a long time will come back to blow up at any time. Instead work through it. Realize what they've said, tell them or yourself they're wrong and move on. If they are not helping you to be a better person or lifting you up with their words they are not someone you need to be around. Recognize who your real friends are and stick with them!! If someone does go past just talking and threatens or hurts you with something other then their words, LET SOMEONE KNOW. Please reach out and ask someone to help. It will only get worse, I can promise you that.
As for self-love and acceptance, God made you to be perfect the way you are! Don't let an airbrushed picture or society's standard of a "beautiful person" stop you from being happy with how you were made. Don't let someone put a label on you or limit how you should feel about yourself. If someone does not accept you for the way you were made, they are not someone you want in your life at all. Beauty should not be determined on an outward appearance or the way someone dresses or styles their hair (or lack thereof). If you are happy with who you are, people should accept that! And the only people who wouldn't are judgmental and jealous. They are jealous of the fact that you are comfortable being who you are and they aren't! Or even if they're judgemental of something you love or do. The same thing goes. Self-love/acceptance is based on you and no one else. Don't let someone else's opinion or view of "beauty" stop you from being happy with yourself!!
As some of you know or may not, I LOVE animals, especially horses. A dream of mine is to eventually have an animal rescue and a program that brings troubled teens and children together with a hurt rescued animal and they together help each other and fix the other through love and compassion. I want it to be open to anyone and not just privileged people or someone with money. I want anyone to feel they have the chance for happiness even if it's through the broken soul of an animal who needs their kindness and love to heal and progress. Animals can do amazing things and I want people to realize what a special gift they are.
Health and fitness are another topic I want to help others realize are very important! Staying fit and eating healthy if good for the body but there is also a lot to do to keep the mind, heart, and soul healthy and "fit". God designed us to work and DO things. Even if you are injured or sick and can not do much extraneous exercises there is plenty you can do to stay fit and healthy. Eating right has a huge impact about how you function and feel. If you try to work out while eating a ton of junk food, I can tell you now that it's a bad idea. You'll end up feeling even worse than going into it. Have a good base and start eating healthy and then slowly start into a routine and schedule. Yoga is very good to stretch muscles and help blood flow both before and after a work out. Water is imperative and I can not stress that enough. Make sure to drink plenty before, during, and after exercise! It will help flush out bad toxins and will prevent muscle cramping and many other bad side-effects of a good work out. Always remember that it's not only working the body that is important. It is good to have balance all around. There are many fun and interactive ways to stay fit, so defiantly do some of everything to have a good all around base.
And the last goal I'll talk about (for now and in this post) is inspiring and motivating others. Not too long ago I gave up on life and tried to quit multiple times, but I am so glad God said it wasn't my time to come home yet. It took me quite a while but I have finally come to understand why and what my purpose is. Things will never be easy because life isn't easy, but there are SO many things that you can do to make it better. Yes there are many illnesses out there but if you give in to them then you're giving up. Never give up guys. FIGHT! There is tons you can do to fight the mental part of all illnesses. And I do recommend you get professional help. But no one can help you if you don't want to be helped.... You have to desire to keep living and fight whatever it is that you may be going through. And that is the first step to healing. Wanting to get healed and get better.
There are always people who care and so so many that do! Reach out to someone and let them know you need help, because they'll never know to help unless you take off the mask and let them know what is going on. You're never alone and there is always someone willing and wanting to help you. Friends and family who will support you is another key to healing. Even if you have one friend then let that friend be enough to help you heal! If you don't have a friend you can trust with your problems, healing is still possible!! Don't give up because you don't have a friend. And about 99% have someone willing to help and don't even realize it. Really think hard and look around you and at the people in your life and I'm very sure you'll find someone who cares :)
It's currently past 2am so I must be off to sleep now, but hope that my early morning mumblings can hopefully help someone. That is, if someone can even make sense of what I'm typing ha. I will go into further depth in each of the categories below, one at a time, eventually. But thought I'd give y'all an over-view of what to look forward to in some of the future posts. Thanks for reading. I love y'all and stay awesome!!
(PS sorry if anything above is misspelled because spellcheck isn't working and I have no idea why....)
The reason I started YouTube and this blog was to help anyone going through a tough time or just struggling with themselves to know they're not alone and that healing and happiness is possible. I want to help others realize the power they hold in them and to take control of their lives and that happiness, self-acceptance, and healing is all dependant on them but there are many different ways to go about reaching that high ground. So I want to share through my past experiences and things I've learned over the years with others so that maybe it can help someone. I know a lot have had it worse off than me and that I am not a professor nor know everything, but that hopefully some of my ramblings and mumblings can make sense to someone and maybe help them. I also want to give others some ideas on how to enjoy life and make the best of what they have. Growing up I know that my family is not the most privileged but that I am so so thankful for what God has given us and that we could have it a lot worse off. And for years I complained always wanting more and always taking things for granted. I sorely wish I hadn't because I have lost much due to that. After many trials and errors I have come to learn to always be thankful for what you have, no matter what it may be.
And it doesn't matter if you're that kid that wears hand-me-downs or works harder than all the other kids to do what they love or the kid that is considered weird to others because of their passions, because as long as you love yourself and enjoy what you do, then the haters can keep hating all they want but you'll end up being the one with years and years of amazing and fulfilling memories and experiences that you'd never want to trade for even the world itself. Always think of the long-run and that yes, it may seem bad right now. But I promise that things always get better. They can't always stay bad. And if you're not here for tomorrow, who knows what it holds? Who knows what amazing opportunity might suddenly present itself to you by total happen-chance? God can work amazing miracles. Never give up guys. Tomorrow is another day and a fresh start.
Another goal is to be involved in helping others in need. Either in nursing homes, orphanages, animal rescues, or at the local yard sale I want to be active in doing good for this planet and the people and lives on it. So so so so so (I can not write enough so's) many people take things for granted and I know there are many mistakes that humans make, but sadly this is a big one. We are never guaranteed tomorrow so always treasure today and right now like it was your last. BUT instead of living it selfishly and doing something to benefit you, go and do something that would in your imaginary last day benefit someone that would be living tomorrow. Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. And when you give you always get back. It may not always be something like cash or a physical item. It may only be a hug, sincere "thank-you", or just making someone happy but let that be enough! Let making someone's day make your day. Let making someone smile, make you smile. Give generously and not worry about what you'll get back in return, because the love that you give that is always guaranteed to come back 10 fold. Spread happiness and be happy doing so!! I can not express how happy it makes me to make someone happy and see them smile...it makes all of the hard times that it took me to get here so worth it and I would never change it for the world!
Spreading love, happiness, and goodness to others is not easy. We all have our bad days and that's okay! We just have to realize that one day shouldn't take us down and stop us. Remember why you do what you do (whatever that may be) and use that to motivate yourself to keep going.
I also want to help spread the concept of self-acceptance, self-love, and not judging/bullying/putting others down. Hurting others is a disguise for weakness. Even though words do hurt, don't let someone using them to hurt you get to you. Don't ignore it because eventually after bottling it up for a long time will come back to blow up at any time. Instead work through it. Realize what they've said, tell them or yourself they're wrong and move on. If they are not helping you to be a better person or lifting you up with their words they are not someone you need to be around. Recognize who your real friends are and stick with them!! If someone does go past just talking and threatens or hurts you with something other then their words, LET SOMEONE KNOW. Please reach out and ask someone to help. It will only get worse, I can promise you that.
As for self-love and acceptance, God made you to be perfect the way you are! Don't let an airbrushed picture or society's standard of a "beautiful person" stop you from being happy with how you were made. Don't let someone put a label on you or limit how you should feel about yourself. If someone does not accept you for the way you were made, they are not someone you want in your life at all. Beauty should not be determined on an outward appearance or the way someone dresses or styles their hair (or lack thereof). If you are happy with who you are, people should accept that! And the only people who wouldn't are judgmental and jealous. They are jealous of the fact that you are comfortable being who you are and they aren't! Or even if they're judgemental of something you love or do. The same thing goes. Self-love/acceptance is based on you and no one else. Don't let someone else's opinion or view of "beauty" stop you from being happy with yourself!!
As some of you know or may not, I LOVE animals, especially horses. A dream of mine is to eventually have an animal rescue and a program that brings troubled teens and children together with a hurt rescued animal and they together help each other and fix the other through love and compassion. I want it to be open to anyone and not just privileged people or someone with money. I want anyone to feel they have the chance for happiness even if it's through the broken soul of an animal who needs their kindness and love to heal and progress. Animals can do amazing things and I want people to realize what a special gift they are.
Health and fitness are another topic I want to help others realize are very important! Staying fit and eating healthy if good for the body but there is also a lot to do to keep the mind, heart, and soul healthy and "fit". God designed us to work and DO things. Even if you are injured or sick and can not do much extraneous exercises there is plenty you can do to stay fit and healthy. Eating right has a huge impact about how you function and feel. If you try to work out while eating a ton of junk food, I can tell you now that it's a bad idea. You'll end up feeling even worse than going into it. Have a good base and start eating healthy and then slowly start into a routine and schedule. Yoga is very good to stretch muscles and help blood flow both before and after a work out. Water is imperative and I can not stress that enough. Make sure to drink plenty before, during, and after exercise! It will help flush out bad toxins and will prevent muscle cramping and many other bad side-effects of a good work out. Always remember that it's not only working the body that is important. It is good to have balance all around. There are many fun and interactive ways to stay fit, so defiantly do some of everything to have a good all around base.
And the last goal I'll talk about (for now and in this post) is inspiring and motivating others. Not too long ago I gave up on life and tried to quit multiple times, but I am so glad God said it wasn't my time to come home yet. It took me quite a while but I have finally come to understand why and what my purpose is. Things will never be easy because life isn't easy, but there are SO many things that you can do to make it better. Yes there are many illnesses out there but if you give in to them then you're giving up. Never give up guys. FIGHT! There is tons you can do to fight the mental part of all illnesses. And I do recommend you get professional help. But no one can help you if you don't want to be helped.... You have to desire to keep living and fight whatever it is that you may be going through. And that is the first step to healing. Wanting to get healed and get better.
There are always people who care and so so many that do! Reach out to someone and let them know you need help, because they'll never know to help unless you take off the mask and let them know what is going on. You're never alone and there is always someone willing and wanting to help you. Friends and family who will support you is another key to healing. Even if you have one friend then let that friend be enough to help you heal! If you don't have a friend you can trust with your problems, healing is still possible!! Don't give up because you don't have a friend. And about 99% have someone willing to help and don't even realize it. Really think hard and look around you and at the people in your life and I'm very sure you'll find someone who cares :)
It's currently past 2am so I must be off to sleep now, but hope that my early morning mumblings can hopefully help someone. That is, if someone can even make sense of what I'm typing ha. I will go into further depth in each of the categories below, one at a time, eventually. But thought I'd give y'all an over-view of what to look forward to in some of the future posts. Thanks for reading. I love y'all and stay awesome!!
(PS sorry if anything above is misspelled because spellcheck isn't working and I have no idea why....)
Welcome to my blog!
So some of you may know me and some of you may not. Either way, I welcome you to my new blog!!
I've had blogs in the past, but none really "serious". They were more just posting pointless pictures of my life so that relatives could see what was going on. In a sense I'm still doing that except sharing my life with everyone to see! I have a YouTube channel in which I have recently started making videos on along with other various social medias that you're welcome to either follow me and get updates of the various going-ons in my life or contact me for any reason :)
As of writing this, I'm an 18 year old girl that has big dreams and a lot of different things, illnesses or bad situations whatever they may be, holding me back. Yet I've created this blog to not only let others know they're not alone, but that healing and reaching your goals and dreams is possible no matter what. And the keys to that are: Hope, Fiath, and Beliving in yourself. I hope that I can inspire people to fight not only for others but also for theirselves. I don't really have a set "theme" of what this blog is for (comedy, travel, how-tos, etc) but will kind of cover a little of everything and just post whatever I feel like writing. The same goes for my Youtube and other forms of social media. Honestly my life is pretty boring and due to many reasons I have actually not left my house in over 3 years. But now that I have come to terms with my problems and instead of deciding to let them control me I am fighting back and want to share my journey to healing and hopefully help as many as I can along the way. I know that I am not alone in everything I go through and I hope I can let others know this too. I have so many interests and things I love that can not be explained in one post so I guess following me to learn more eventually is a good reason to follow? I wouldn't be offended if you don't though but just know that you get no cookies.....mwa-ha-ha-ha....ha.....*ahem*
Anyways thanks for stopping by and as always never be afraid to contact me for any reason at all. I love y'all and stay awesome!
I've had blogs in the past, but none really "serious". They were more just posting pointless pictures of my life so that relatives could see what was going on. In a sense I'm still doing that except sharing my life with everyone to see! I have a YouTube channel in which I have recently started making videos on along with other various social medias that you're welcome to either follow me and get updates of the various going-ons in my life or contact me for any reason :)
As of writing this, I'm an 18 year old girl that has big dreams and a lot of different things, illnesses or bad situations whatever they may be, holding me back. Yet I've created this blog to not only let others know they're not alone, but that healing and reaching your goals and dreams is possible no matter what. And the keys to that are: Hope, Fiath, and Beliving in yourself. I hope that I can inspire people to fight not only for others but also for theirselves. I don't really have a set "theme" of what this blog is for (comedy, travel, how-tos, etc) but will kind of cover a little of everything and just post whatever I feel like writing. The same goes for my Youtube and other forms of social media. Honestly my life is pretty boring and due to many reasons I have actually not left my house in over 3 years. But now that I have come to terms with my problems and instead of deciding to let them control me I am fighting back and want to share my journey to healing and hopefully help as many as I can along the way. I know that I am not alone in everything I go through and I hope I can let others know this too. I have so many interests and things I love that can not be explained in one post so I guess following me to learn more eventually is a good reason to follow? I wouldn't be offended if you don't though but just know that you get no cookies.....mwa-ha-ha-ha....ha.....*ahem*
Anyways thanks for stopping by and as always never be afraid to contact me for any reason at all. I love y'all and stay awesome!
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